Being Full Of Thanks

I can't even remember the last time I sat down to do this. That is not a good sign. My days off are few and far between these days. I only had one day off last week, and I had so much stuff to do, that I didn't get around to this, which kind of makes me feel bad, because this is a priority to me. The fact that I didn't make the time, makes me feel like I let myself down. But I'll get over it. I'm resilient. I can't stay down on myself very long, there's always an uplifting thought on it's way. I'm terribly distracted by my music choice today. This, I feel, is ironic. In order to understand the irony, I have to give you a little back story. You may recall me telling you a couple of weeks ago that my computer was down to one working speaker. You may also recall that I put out to the Universe that I would have the means to upgrade, before things got worse. Well, I had my Birthday a week ago, and low and behold, I received my wish. My parents are on some weird kind of spending kick recently. I'm not sure exactly what it's all about, but they are really putting it out there. It's almost ridiculous. They came down for Thanksgiving weekend. I made time where I could. I was glad to have Thanksgiving day and the Saturday after to spend with them. Not only did they take me, and my family, out to several wonderful meals, they also stocked my liquor cabinet, and I won't need to buy snacks again until New Years. It seemed bizarre, they are in a very giving mood. It almost seems like too much.

To continue with my story, they also got me new speakers and a new monitor. For a while now I had been using this big old boxy monitor, and now I have a beautiful flat screen. I didn't realize how much I was squinting. Now I feel relaxed looking at the screen. Who knew? They got me, or I guess I should say us, but it was my Birthday, it doesn't really matter, I now have brand new Bose speakers. I had already made sure that they worked, so I know they got set up correctly. However, today was to be their inaugural listen. I picked a band called Dream Theater, which is something I have often heard about, but never bothered to give it a chance. So I decided today was the day. I was going to rock out to Dream Theater as I typed along my merry way. Well, for some reason the digital recording is f*cked up or something, because it keeps taking these digital farts. The songs don't ever play all the way through, it's really messing with my Chi. Not to mention that it's not at all what I was expecting. Parts of it sound like it might be cool, but it sounds as if it was remastered by DJ Seizure. The commercial that played just before the album started sounded great, there was no problem with that, so I have to imagine that it has something to do with the person who uploaded it. Thus, it feels ironic to me that the first chance I have to break in my new speakers is on a sh*tty version of a mediocre album. Oh well, I suppose them's the berries.

I never really got that saying. I don't even know what made it slip out right now. I'm going to have to look that up. I'm very interested in the origins of things. Not interested enough to go on Ancestry dot com, but still I like origins. I'm especially interested in origins during this time of year. Thanksgiving is one of my favorite things. Maybe my most favorite. Being as that there is no religious connotation, and the whole point is to get together with loved ones and eat, drink, and be merry! Putting an emphasis on being thankful is something I do on a daily basis, but to dedicate an entire day to it, or as some of us do, an entire four day Weekend, is truly remarkable. I never hear anyone complain about Thanksgiving, and I hope I never will. Susan and I are rapidly approaching 12 years together, and this was the first time our Families ever got together. We were all under the same roof, for the first time, and it was very comfortable. There didn't seem to be any awkwardness, everyone fit right in. I know that was important to my parents. They still keep mentioning how welcome they felt. And that seems to be the whole point. I saw this special on the first Thanksgiving, and realize that we don't really have to go through any of the hardships that the pilgrims did. They really were not sure that they were going to make it, and just the fact that they survived, made them so grateful, that they had to give Thanks. I have come to realize that we don't need our lives to be on the line, we can just be full of Thanks.

Daughn